Photo Log #1: First Canon A-1 Outing

Wednesday, Jan. 19, 2022. 3:30 PM. 85°F, clear and sunny with a cool breeze.

It’s sad enough the hours of life you lose to work, but it’s all the more compounded when the days that pass by are absolutely beautiful.

That certainly was in the back of my mind as I watched the days go by between the moment I finally received my Canon A-1 and my weekend. How badly I wanted to go out to shoot with it, to really put to the test all the videos and articles I’d been reading on its functions and the general tips on getting great exposures for film.

Finally the day I’d been anticipating rolled around. And, thankfully, it followed the trend of near perfect weather.

Being Texas in the winter, of course, this would be a moment I’d have to take advantage of or else be in for more of a wait. While we were enjoying spring-like weather at the time, the very next day promised a dip into the 40s with rain and sleet possibilities. It’s always an interesting dynamic — venturing out in shorts that afternoon knowing the very next day would be sweatpants and pozole weather.

I dwell on the weather mainly because I knew it would determine more the kind of shooting I hoped to do than what I was used to dealing with using my DSLR. I’m at the point where I’m still learning film, and I’m cutting my teeth on a pretty basic color stock: Kodak Ultramax 400.

Forgive the boring tech talk to follow.

When I was a kid, the numbers on the box never really meant anything to me. However, now I know it’s indicative of the film’s speed or ISO/ASA — its sensitivity to light. 400 is a speed I understand to be relatively flexible — a good middle ground between the slower speeds (200 and less) that are meant more for bright sunny days and the faster speeds (up to 3200) which perform best in low light or night situations.

This was important to keep in mind because my lens, the 50mm f1.4, certainly has a wealth of aperture settings that I hadn’t used before — namely the 2.8 and lower settings. Such wide apertures promised beautifully blurred backgrounds when focusing on subjects, but the dynamic I’d never really considered when shooting digital is that now the film’s speed factored in here. Open up that aperture too much, and I’d risk overexposing. That’s not to say ISO isn’t a factor in digital photography, because of course it is. But like I’ve mentioned previously, I’d mainly shot in Aperture Priority mode where the camera basically handled ISO and shutter speed. Now, I felt I had to pay closer attention because the speed of the film couldn’t exactly change. It’s a physical property.

In essence, in my mind so nurtured by the ease and flexibility of shooting digital, I wondered if I could still get away with shooting wide in sunny situations. I felt the only way I’d learn for sure, is the hard way.

I ventured out to a familiar haunt: The Hans and Pat Suter Wildlife Refuge. It became a favorite spot ever since I thought I saw an owl back in December and spent the next couple of weeks making it a point to stop and see if I could spot it again.

But also I’m just enamored by the trees found throughout it. My favorite, perhaps, being the great leadtrees — found only in South Texas from what I understand — who boast magnificent branches ascending into the sky and display such a vibrant shade of brown that comes out well when photographed (see cover image of post).

While you never fully escape the sound of traffic from the road that runs nearby, as you walk along it does get muffled and your ears begin picking up the subtler sounds of the refuge — unknown creatures rustling through the grass, the wings of birds flapping between the branches, the wavering of leaves as the wind runs free through them. It’s one of my favorite spots simply to focus and do a bit of reflecting, though I learned recently its status as an indigenous burial ground so I’d be remiss not to add that it is very much a sacred space, as well.

I brought along a small notebook. My game plan was this: this first roll would mainly be a trial roll. I’d test my wondering about opening apertures wide in certain lighting situations — jotting down the f-stop and shutter speed for each exposure, following or straying from the Canon’s internal light meter, and essentially comparing the notes I took with the scans I would eventually get back a week or so later. It’s kind of a long, drawn-out process when you think about it, but I figure most learning processes take time.

Right off the bat I wanted to test out my thoughts on how shooting at a wide aperture might go over in such sunny conditions. To my surprise, the resulting image (on the left) doesn’t appear as overexposed as I thought it might. I can certainly see the kind of weirdness that resulted with the shallow depth of field that came from shooting wide, but I actually prefer the colors in this shot over the one on the right.

However, I do prefer the overall look of the image on the right. While the leaves in the foreground are strangely darker, I like that you can make out the background details a lot better. The clouds are fluffier, and I do love me some fluffy clouds.

There’s a variety of things I’m thinking about now that I’m looking at these two comparisons. Several of the photos from this roll came out looking a bit darker than I thought, even as I followed the light meter for many of them. I think for this I can either 1) go a bit wider than the suggestion in the meter or 2) try pushing the film instead. I shot with my camera set to the box speed of 400, so in similar conditions I think I might try shooting at 200 instead. This has been a suggestion of many YouTubers I’ve watched, but I wanted to try and see for myself what it looked like going the normal route first.

Shot at f6.7, in some shade.

As I continued along, I noted what my meter read as I shot — sometimes following it, sometimes going a bit wider. I’ll admit, I think there was a kind of adolescent desire to shoot wide even if the meter advised against it simply because I hadn’t ever had a lens with that ability before that point yet.

Another thing I’m keeping in mind now while looking at the scans is that, while shooting wider may not have overexposed to very much detriment, there were instances where I was disregarding where the sun was positioned. I believe that’s what contributed to the darker look to the foreground leaves in the aforementioned comparison photos, as well as this one off to the side.

The big thing I was delighted by after seeing the results, however, were the colors that were captured. It’s no secret that one of the aspects that draws photographers to film is the way color is rendered — appealing to that sense in our consciousness that responds with nostalgia. I can only describe the way the palettes in each image are rendered as being rich, capturing both a moment and a memory.

Enjoy some of my favorite shots from this first roll below. All photos developed by Gelatin Labs. Feel free to comment with any feedback, and definitely suggestions. Also, enjoy a short playlist I curated to go along with this post below.

Until next time.

The Film Bug

Somewhere in the numerous articles, videos or social media posts I’ve consumed in a semi-hypnotized state the past few weeks I came across the phrase, and it certainly rings true to my condition: “bitten by the film bug.”

Apparently this is something any photographer can fall prey to in this digital era — from amateur hobbyists like me, to lifelong professionals. Once bitten, a budding curiosity snowballs into obsession as you take a deep dive into a fervently impassioned community all with a wealth of knowledge to share about analog. Suddenly, you too want to turn back the clock a bit.

There are numerous reasons for this. Nostalgia, such a potent force on many levels of our cultural landscape, might beckon an individual to abandon their filters and presets and instead go for The Real Thing™. Or, perhaps, the adventure promised by film photography — with its emphasis on really embedding value in each shot lest you waste a frame and eventually spend your whole roll — rekindles the kind of passion that makes one really want to slow down and spend more time composing your shot. Or perhaps it’s none of this, and it’s really just something one picks up for the fun of it (though it’s kind of an expensive joyride).

Whatever the reason, it goes without saying that the medium certainly has found many adherents in recent years, and now counts me among them. For me, I’d say I check each of the boxes above when it comes to motivation, with an emphasis on the second.

Aside from the photo of my Canon, all shots in this post were taken with a Kodak point-and-shoot I picked up from Renaissance Antiques.

I’d been wanting to delve into it for a couple of years now as I saw the work produced by super talented friends on Instagram (among them @luisesoteric, @maloneshootsfilm, @sandovallens, and @conjure333). The thing that kept me from taking the plunge, however, was my tendency to overly plan meticulously before going in on something.

In this case, I debated for over a year on whether I wanted to buy myself a good film camera or, instead, a new prime lens for my DSLR. This past December I began frequenting Antique Row in the hopes I’d come across a reasonably-priced film SLR. I picked up a basic point-and-shoot before Christmas that staved off the hunger for a bit, but I was shortly back into the market for an SLR.

I am, uh, not proud of how often I refreshed Facebook Marketplace or eBay in the last couple of weeks leading up to me finally going in on something. After some research into good film SLRs for beginners, I had an idea of what I wanted (either a Canon A-1 or Canon AE-1P) but let slide one AE-1P and Minolta-X700 that were going for great prices because I hesitated and they got snatched up (they hadn’t had assurances that they worked, but then they also didn’t say the didn’t). This is the other aspect of my overly-meticulous planning: when the opportunity presents itself, I often hesitate if there isn’t a guarantee.

Finally, my top pick, a Canon A-1, came up for a deal the other day and, after some prodding from friends, I went in on it. It was a Monday and got delivered on a Friday and believe me when I tell you that I was deep in the throes of anticipation during those hours in between.

A gorgeous model with barely any blemishes. Not bad for a camera released over 40 years ago.

It’s funny because as I plunged into this world — teaching myself the functions of the camera, the varying ways to get the right exposures, the history of the medium, etc. — it almost seemed like this wasn’t a format any of us grew up with. Naturally, as with any child of the 90s or earlier, it was — though keeping metering in mind with an SLR is certainly a far cry from me throwing a disposable camera into my backpack to snap a few photos on a field trip.

I think it’s because when I was a kid, the function of photography took precedence over the artistic qualities. It was for capturing memories, retaining all the faces and moments we look back at with such love when we pore through old photo albums.

I can’t help but wonder, when looking at film as a medium now as an adult in the digital era, it’s not that it’s less about capturing memories but also about capturing feeling — a sense that doesn’t always come through when letting your shutter fly on a DSLR. I can write a whole other blog post about finding refuge in nostalgia amid a cultural landscape drained of meaning through the logic of commercial aesthetic, but that may be for another day. For now, at least for me, I can’t help but acknowledge all this is part of film’s appeal to me.

On the whole, though, it’s fun. Photography has become fun for me, so engaging in this other format has certainly added another jolt into that enjoyment.

One of my favorite anecdotes I like to tell folks about my personal history with photography is how I was probably the worst photographer in class when I took Photojournalism during my first stint in college. Moments like when I went out for an assignment and came back with photos of a cat, or the time I appeared in the paper after election night because I found myself on the wrong side of the camera trying to get a shot of the newly-elected mayor, or the times I left my lens cap on… all added up to a reputation that kept the camera out of my hands when a good shot was needed for a story.

I think, for the most part, I can thankfully leave that reputation in the past now.

It takes me a long time to ever say I’m good at anything. I think that’s more a testament to my general self-deprecating nature than anything, but I will at most say I’m competent at something. I think I’m at the point where I can say I am finally competent at photography, at least to the extent where I am certain I can come back with something of use if given another assignment.

But the main thing with photography, is it’s hard for me to settle on what I’d actually consider a level of being personally good at the medium. At the moment, it’s only partly about composition because I recognize that how a photo is received is largely subjective. When I shoot, I try and capture something that caught the attention of my mind’s eye and it’s only natural that everyone’s perspective may or may not share the appeal.

Film certainly is a gamble, too. You don’t know if what you shot came out how you envisioned it until you get your scans back. But when it works, like I feel it did for me here, it’s a moment of excitement.

Instead, I think my main drive right now is to learn more the technical aspects of photography. I’ve lived on Aperture Priority on my DSLR for so long and the fact the Canon A-1 has this feature means I intend to use it starting out. But really getting the hang of Manual remains that one nagging thought in the back of my head.

Another cool thing about picking up film, though, is I’m already noticing how much I’m better understanding principles that I feel will help in digital, as well. I’ve revisited the Exposure Triangle so much in recent weeks, as well as delved into understanding exposure compensation, which I think has finally helped me understand why some photos I took on my DSLR often came out brighter than it looked to me in the viewfinder. Go figure.

However, in terms of aesthetics, I certainly am looking forward to trying new things. The Canon came with a 50mm f1.4 lens, which is a focal length and aperture I’d really been wanting to try. In fact, it’s the kind of lens I’d been looking to get my DSLR if I hadn’t gone in on a camera. I’ve read this focal length is close to how we typically see the world (that, or 35mm) and the aperture range promises some good flexibility in low light situations.

I also think I want to delve more into black and white photography. Besides being cheaper film stock, I’ve always loved the look of black and white as far back as my cringey film (cinema) snob days. It’s an enduring look, and one that presents even further opportunities to think through composition.

At the time of this writing, I’ve only had rolls developed from my point-and-shoot, but I’m excited to see what comes from the Canon. I think I’ll be covering certain rolls and photo outings in future posts, so if you’ve enjoyed my rambling about photography here, keep an eye out for those.

This post is a bit longer than I intended but I think that’s a testament to how obsessed I’ve gotten with this stuff lately. Consider this an open invitation to anyone else who enjoys nerding out to share your own thoughts in the comments.

For everyone else, consider this an open invitation to buy me film cuz that shit gets pricey.

Updates, a hunt, and a playlist

Howdy and happy new year all! I’m trying not to say “it” but I can’t think of anything else to say but “it” so…

“It’s been a minute, huh?”

Picking up and dropping projects has long been my MO, I’m afraid, but I guess I forgot that this blog was just supposed to be an outlet for writing in general. So with the new year comes new resolutions, which I do tend to make and try and stick to. One such, as you might have guessed, is to keep up with this blog more. I mean, I’m paying for this, ain’t I?!

So I intend to be checking in more, updating on life’s goings-on, and sharing thoughts on this and that. You know, exciting things. I also intend to get back to the radio show but that’s on hiatus while I focus on some bigger priorities in my life. I do hope to have a really cool interview episode up next month, however, that I recorded back in November.

The hunt

A couple of not-so-serious things have been dominating my mind lately. Firstly, for the unaware, amateur nature photography became a pretty big hobby for me over the course of these pandemic years. I think I’ll write a longer post on this sometime soon but, for now, know that winter in these parts brings such an array of migratory visitors and I have been invigorated to find them all!

Some time back in November or December I was driving down Holly and caught sight of something I totally did not expect. It was in a pretty busy part of the road, but there was a ditch in between two businesses with water in it that was separated from the sidewalk by a rail. Perched on that rail was a Belted Kingfisher — a sight that stuck out much more blatantly because I hadn’t realized they made their way down to these parts.

I did have my camera in my trunk, though not my long telescopic lens, but decided to make a hasty U-turn either way and try and park to snap whatever photo I could get. However, once I parked, the kingfisher flew off.

I was struck at how pretty and large the bird was. I expected something the size of a little warbler judging by photos I’d seen of it with it’s little legs and stout body. But it approached more the size of maybe a jay or swallow. Certainly big enough for me to spot it from the road and instantly realize what it was I was looking at.

If you squint you might be able to see it laughing heartily at my failure.

After that first failure I encountered two other kingfishers on separate occasions. Once while I was driving on the causeway coming from Flour Bluff (even less of an opportunity to pull over) I spotted one sitting on a power line. The other time I was on a pre-birthday trip to the Aransas National Wildlife Refuge for the first time, where I spotted one while at the top of the 40-foot observation tower. It flew into the air, did a sort of flip, and landed on a ground-level sign at a distance that even my telescopic lens could hardly deliver a decent photo.

It wasn’t until the other day I finally had some luck out at the Hans and Pat Suter Wildlife Refuge. I think I had spotted an owl out there around New Year’s Day so I’d been making regular stops ever since to see if I could get lucky again. No owl, but one evening just as the sun was setting I finally spotted a kingfisher a reasonable distance away to snap a photo of. You can see it in the lead photograph of this entry.

If you want to follow along with my nature photography adventures, give my Instagram for all that a follow: @birdcomrade.

The playlist

So like I mentioned above, Mumbler Radio is sort of on the backburner. I had intended and started up a special episode of my favorite songs of 2021 but the motivation has left me.

It’s honestly sort of a physical thing. My day job is a desk job that requires a lot of constant clicking and typing and, having done it for several years now, I think I’m starting to deal with some of the side effects of that. There are periods where the strain on my hands and arms makes it so that I don’t really want to do much more clicking if I don’t have to. So once those occasional flare-ups pass, and I have been dealing a bit with one lately, projects like the show often get put on the backburner.

But I will compensate for the lack of a show with another Spotify playlist much like last year’s. It’s a mixed bag, but certainly boasts way more songs than I was planning to feature on the episode.

In terms of favorite releases, I’d say some of my top picks for 2021 included Fresia Magdalena from Sofia Kourtesis, Afrique Victim from Mdou Moctar, Nine from Sault, Far In from Helado Negro, Mandatory Enjoyment from Dummy, Between Days from Kiefer, LP! from JPEGMAFIA, The Rich Are Only Defeated When Running for Their Lives from Anthony Joseph and The Turning Wheel from Spellling. “Little Deer” by Spellling may just be my favorite track of the year, or at least the one I found myself singing along to most in the car. There were also many compilations and reissues that were standouts but I tend to leave those out when thinking about “new” releases.

Check out tracks from those releases, and many others, below:

As always, let me know what some of your favorite releases are. I’d love to check them out.

That’s it for this update. Thanks as always for reading. I hope you and yours are well and that this new year is kind to you.

Stay strong, stay safe. I’ll talk to you again soon.

– Raul